It has been a long time since I’ve last posted and not without reason. There are countless blogs which documents the inner workings of their authors, that give you a brief peak inside the soul of another to let you see all the beauty and horror that is a human, but this is not one of those blogs. I set out to create a blog that would inspire, bringing joy and beauty to those who stumbled upon my little out of the way place. For that reason I have always spared you that inner turmoil that has been as important an element of my life, as it is a part of nearly every other.
And I will spare you that turmoil here as well! Let it suffice to say that the last year has been an intense one. I have both lost and gained much. Yet for you, my audience, the thing of most relevance is that I have lost the desire to blog. I thought it might be a temporary thing, some symptom of discontent or malaise that would soon pass. I know now that it is much more.
No, my travels have not reached their end. Today I board a plane for East Asia with a one way ticket. It may be the last stop in my journey, or it may only be the next of many more to follow. Whatever the case may be, it will be very different for I no longer go out looking for another adventure, but rather to find a place to rest my head and call home. It will be a different kind of journey and one I have decided I’d rather make privately.
I won’t say I will never return to blogging. In fact, if I have learned anything of value these last four year it is that I know much less than I previously thought. I know less than I would like about the world and less than I would like to know about myself. I am even more woefully unqualified to claim to understand someone else. Yet, perhaps in this awareness I have at least found a sense of humility. For this reason, if none other, I can say that perhaps in a month I will return to writing, but perhaps I won’t.
Despite the sadness I feel while writing this, there is still much to be happy for. I recently received an offer for work as a regular travel writer, perhaps as happy an ending a travel blogger can ever hope to achieve. I have also recently experienced more success as a photographer. These two things mean that for the first time I can see a future where I am truly self-sufficient, and while material success is not the bar by which I measure my own or this blog’s success, it is nice to have some outside confirmation that concrete progress has been made.
I thank you all for taking this journey with me and for those of you that wish to do so, I hope you’ll stay in touch. I like to think of this as a goodbye to my blog, not a goodbye to the many people here I care about. I would challenge all of you to come find me. The world still has a lot to offer and I would like nothing more than to discover it together with you.
Tomorrow I will wake up surrounded by new places and new people. Yet it’s the same world. A world I still dream about reaching out and changing. Like most dreams, it may be forever out of reach, but I hope that will never keep me, or any of us, from continuing the chase.
With Love Everlasting,
Jason NathanielMay the road rise up to meet you.
May the wind be always at your back.
May the sun shine warm upon your face;
the rains fall soft upon your fields and until we meet again,
may God hold you in the palm of His hand.
I totally understand. Sometimes when we blog (or not) we feel this guilt that just hangs on us like an itchy coat. It’s nice to just say, “I’m taking off the coat, y’all.” Good stuff. And good luck!
“Chok dee,” good luck, Jason. I’m glad I went to those meditation classes in the freezing cold of winter – glad you were in America for the freezing cold of winter. Thanks for all the guidance so far. – Zak
The Kalahari Bushmen say: “there is a dream dreaming us”. I’m confident that you will continue to fulfill your own beautiful dream and that you play an important role in the dream dreaming us. Thank you so much for your warm stories and stunning photo’s and for the great time we spend together in Utah and Colorado. Until we meet again! And remember: you are always welcome in Holland.
Safe travels, may the road be with you.
Thank you for your blog. Please take care, and all the best in the future. You will be missed 🙂
We miss you.